Four-year-old Ta’nyiah Gonzalez ran up the stairs of her grandma’s two-floor duplex, racing ahead of two Slumberland Furniture deliverymen who arrived Monday morning bearing an early Christmas gift.
“Up! Up! Up to my room!” the little girl shouted down to the deliverymen.
The men lugged up the stairs a new mattress, box spring and frame—a gift for Ta’nyiah through “Homes for the Holidays,” a mattress giveaway the Janesville Slumberland store orchestrates every December for families in need.
Ta’nyiah already had picked out a spot for the mattress. She’d even moved her small “Frozen” card table and chairs to the hallway to make room for her new bed.
Ta’nyiah has shared a bed with her grandmother, Donna Gonzalez, since August, when the two moved here to an apartment owned by a family member off Harvard Court.
The 67-year-old Gonzalez and her preschool-age granddaughter came from the west side of Chicago, where Gonzalez had lived her whole life. She finally had to flee the city’s gun violence after her daughter Tierra Gonzalez—Ta‘nyiah’s mother—was shot in the back and killed in April 2018.
Ta’nyiah doesn’t call Gonzalez “Grandma.” She calls her “Mom.”
“It’s a gift and a blessing to be where we are now, here. I have some peace, and today a little girl has a bed. We came here with nothing, but it will be all right. We’re living. I feel peace,” Gonzalez said Monday morning as her two dogs and two cats milled around the living room of her apartment.
Upstairs, Ta’nyiah, home from preschool with the sniffles, sat on her new bed. She was perched in a colorful tent she begged Gonzalez to pop up on the bed even before Gonzalez had a chance to make up the bed with sheets and a blanket.
Peggy Libson operates Slumberland and runs the Milton Avenue store’s mattress giveaway with the help of local nonprofits, who suggest families in need of beds. Libson and her employees delivered 43 beds in Janesville on Monday.
Libson said even after a decade of running the mattress giveaway in Janesville, she seldom hears stories like Gonzalez’s.
“So often, people might not say much,” Libson said. “You’re a stranger bringing over a new bed. It’s overwhelming maybe. Often, they say ‘thank you,’ and we go. To get a chance to see into someone’s life when you do this, it’s very special.”
Gonzalez is finding equilibrium in her life even as she continues to mourn the loss of her daughter, who Gonzalez said was inseparable from Ta’nyiah.
Tierra, 30, was shot April 21, 2018, as she sat in her car on West Jackson Boulevard and South Lotus Avenue in Chicago’s troubled South Austin neighborhood.
She was dropping off a friend who was returning items to a boyfriend when a man police think was intent on armed robbery approached her car and shot Tierra’s friend in the stomach.
The robber then shot Tierra in the back, killing her almost immediately. He fled.
Ta’nyiah, then 3, was sitting in the car when Tierra was shot. The young girl witnessed the horror of her mother dying, which Gonzalez says has “traumatized” the child.
“She’ll be 5, but it’s like 5 going on 35. She has seen a lot,” Gonzalez said.
Ta’nyiah and Tierra had been on their way to a Saturday afternoon swimming party the day Tierra was killed. She had been taking a short detour to help out her friend on the way to the party.
Gonzalez said the only clues police have in the murder are the ones that most haunt her.
She has seen footage of the shooting from video police recovered from a security camera mounted in the area.
The weekend Tierra was killed, there were 11 other shootings in Chicago—at least three of them fatal. No one has been brought to justice for Tierra’s murder, Gonzalez said.
“I’ve been on the Chicago detectives every week since last year,” Gonzalez said. “Every week I call them. I don’t want my daughter to be just another statistic.”
In Janesville, Gonzalez said she has been able to find comfort in a community with far less violent crime.
She can take her granddaughter just down the street every day to go swimming and to beginner gymnastics at the downtown YMCA. She doesn’t worry what might happen when Ta’nyiah rides her bike around the apartment’s parking lot.
Gonzalez hadn’t felt comfortable going out at night in Chicago after her daughter was killed. She even quit her job as a ride-share driver over fear of random violence.
She said she feels she and Ta’nyiah can drive to the Milton Avenue Dunkin’ restaurant without fear or uncertainty of what might happen on the way.
“And when you get there, they know who I am,” she said. “They know what I drink like the back of their hand. They know just how I like it. I really love that.”
Gonzalez plans to go to Slumberland to thank the owners for their gift to her family, which she called “unexpected.” She wants the owners to know what their generosity means to her and the little girl she’s raising as her own daughter.
“I take comfort in her having her own bedroom and now her own bed next to her toys. She can fix a little girl’s room however she wants it,” Gonzalez said. “I don’t take these things for granted. I don’t take life for granted, and I don’t take people for granted. I don’t, because nobody has to do anything for you. I count this as nothing but a blessing to me.”